How's life blog, are u lonely? Because i do feel lonely at times, realising that the only listener that will let me rant and scold is it lol. not saying others don't help but still typing do vent alot of stress. Family, school work, relationships.
Its taking a toll off me now? Fencing has been a part of my life for sometime now, but its only seems that i am getting worst and worst each time i fence. OK people may say that, there is no coach but still dropping of standard to this level is almost not edwin-like. Just hope any coach come soon and help me get back in shape, physically and mentally.
nothing much to share about family, relationships only one word, Betrayal or maybe its stupidity. Learned my lesson i guess, perhaps being bad is a better choice than good. I asked myself and other people before, what is the use of being a good guy, u only get off unnoticed. People will just think u are another guy of the block. So perhaps the bad here i mean is not doing evil stuff, just some things i have in mind yea.
I believe most people have been in this situation before, its hard to be a good person giving advice when people obviously don't want to listen. So yea why give the advice, so for example if a friend come ask me, how to quit smoking, now i will just tell him, for what u want to quit? Just smoke and die. Maybe this way, he/she will wake up and stop smoking.
Evil? nope its not evil, rather its tactics to tackle the mind, perhaps girls won't understand( sorry for being sexist) but yea, majority of the gals who read the above line will just think i am pure evil, but if u really think about it. What is the use saying, really ah u want to quit? ok good luck jia you, then tell them do this do that, please i can tell u! they will be motivated for awhile, then slowly lose it. I feel that people remember bad things better, for example people won't remember what good u do to them, they will only remember the bads, so don't deny it lol. We are all human. So just say FUCK OFF GO SMOKE AND DIE, maybe they will hate u and try to prove u wrong? then even though u lose a fren, but u helped him extend his life, this is the bad i mean.
I feel i need to learn many things, so from now on, i think i lost my trust, i won't blindly trust people anymore. Words are cheap, action is what i want now.
Quote of the day("The only difference between a bad guy and a good guy, is that bad guy will gain the credit, the good will only be happy in silence") quoted by ed